A song I learnt at my Unca's church in Canada. Yes, I went to church both sundays without fail. Service's at 10am so it's not that bad to wake up for. I totally fell in love with this song.

Oceans will part

If my heart has grown cold
There Your love will unfold
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
When I’m blind to my way
There Your Spirit will pray
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand


Oceans will part nations come
At the whisper of Your call
Hope will rise glory shown
In my life Your will be done


Present suffering may pass
Lord Your mercy will last
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
And my heart will find praise
I’ll delight in Your way
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand
As You open my eyes to the work of Your hand

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I was going to blog about me coming back, Canada and what not but I'm still thinking about it.
Plus I'm lazy to download all my pictures. I has awesome photos. I need to head to my unca's house to kope everything from him. :D Heheh, we has fun jumpshots. Mind you, all these people are like 49 and over and I somehow manage to get them to do fun jumpshots. MY UNCAS AND AUNTYS ARE AWESOMESTSSSS. And my english is terrible.

Sigh. I feel sad, I miss my aunty Rosemary and unca Roger. It sucks to know that they're so far too. Hahah, they said that because of me my aunty Rosemary was going to cry. But I wanted to cry too.. I ended up teary-eyed. I wish the trip wasn't filled with happiness and everything wonderful.. then it wouldn't hurt when I waved goodbye. I think I'll blog a proper account of everything, to remember it all when it's still fresh in my mind so when I miss them I can read it all again. (: Or hope they come to Singapore.

Meanwhile, I've gotta do my uni admin stuff, unpack and get my room back to its original state, prepare worship for cellgroup and a whole bunch of other stuff. I MISS MY UNCA'S LOVELY LOVELY HOUSE THAT LOOKS LIKE IT CAME OUT OF A CATALOGUE. :(

It kinda feels empty now. I was always surrounded by them all the time that now that everyone's life is back to how it was before we left, it just feels empty. I'll miss how every night we'll spend time together playing either skip-bo, rummikub, cranium WOW or 6 dice. And Unca EC would wound up making the game complicated than it is by disputing everything. LOL. We actually spent half and hour trying to explain the blanket game to him. (You know the one where two people are supposed to guess who's on the other side of the blanket once it's dropped) Or how both uncas will try to trick/tease/disturb me and end up failing although unca Roger did manage to make me call him Papa. EVIL. He asked me how to pronounce P-U-P-A and then how to pronounce P-A-P-A. And when I said papa, he said "guai!" LOL!
I love how I can sneak up on Unca Roger with Unca EC with my new NERF gun, shoot and scare the beejeebers out of him and then run away. Really feels like family when you feel so comfy around everyone.

Unca Roger asked me one morning though, "Did you ever think you would be playing games in a hotel room with your uncles and aunties until 2+ in the morning?" And it just made me appreciate them so much more. My dad's side would never do silly things like jump in the middle of a bridge just to take photos, they wouldn't even spend time with us. It was the best time I've ever had with family and I wouldn't change my uncles and aunties for anything/anyone else in the world. (:
More another time.. Off to try to get loot off my bed so I have somewhere to sleep tonight.
Funny, I haven't slept in a bed in a long while. All this while I've been sleeping either on the couch or on top of sleeping bags on the floor.

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TOTALLY UNPACKED! UGH
I used to be so excited about packing and stuff for church camp..
Now it's just. UGH!

I think because this time around I have to pack everything in my room also. Like cover it all with plastic and what not so it wouldn't collect dust. Although I've always wondered, what if there's still dust UNDER the covers so the said items get covered in dust anyway? I think of the weirdest things seriously. I should pack somewhat now, but like UGH, what a daunting task. Plus the suitcase will take up whatever room space I have left. LAZY! I have what? 3-4 days left to pack anyway. I'll probably end up packing early in the morning before I leave. Sounds good to me! WOOT.


Now to more exciting stuff.
I really wanna get guitar hero! UGHHHHH.
Played one song with Lesh at the arcade today and it was good no doubt, but it felt so unfufilled. :(
Totally not worth the price either, $1.50 for one song?! If I played it few hundred times I would have enough to buy a console in itself. :( Le sigh!

In other news, apparently I lost 5kg. :/ And I say apparently because I obviously doubt the weighing machine. How can I lose 5kg within a week, seeing that I probably only exercised really hard for one day. Okay, half an hour not one day. I think it's cos of like my upset stomach aches. :/ That and my mom suspects I have lung infection. My lower lungs tend to hurt periodically for no reason and it's apparently a symptom of lung infection. -shrugs. That and also she insists that I have fever when my forehead isn't heating up at all.
Great, now even she's avoiding me.


SO SLEEPY! I THINK I SHALL SLEEP! (:

OH AND I HAD AN AWESOME TIME WITH ESTHER CHAN AND CHARIS LOW AT SENTOSA ON WEDNESDAY.
But I be lazy to blog about it. :D

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I like to do alot of thinking on the bus, when I'm not sleeping that is.
And my thinking is best done when it's rainy too.
After all, it's nice, cold and cozy in the bus and you feel better.
Feeling better = better thinking!
I just came up with that.

ANYWAY.
I came to a realisation about something.
Or at least I reasoned about something.

You know how sometimes friendships may fall out or fade?
Perhaps due to a misunderstanding or a realisation of a friend's flaw.
Alot of events/factors may contribute to the dissolving of a friendship. Whatever the case may be, I don't think becoming friends again is hypocritical. You know what is that? That's forgiveness and reconciliation. And it's not entirely impossible. Enemies may reconcile also.
I think it's rather close minded to think that a person will never change and that friendships may never heal. Relationships are seldom so black and white. There are times where a person would overlook a flaw and accept the person for who she/he is and not be so judgemental about it. No one's perfect and to hinder a friendship from healing because of a flaw is very self righteous I believe. I've had my fair share of that I guess. I made an enemy on the first day of secondary school and it was a very bad impression of the person no less. Does that mean if one day I become friends with the person, that makes me a hypocrite? No it does not. I did become friends with her because I got to know her and the first impression was all a misunderstanding and blindness of emotions. Reconciliation, why is that not possible? It is. That's what it is, understanding, forgiving and moving on. Why bear a grudge or hate on a friend (ex friend) when you can move past that and become friends again. I agree not often is that possible since the other might change for the worse rather than the better but if in the case of the latter.. would you rather continue wasting your emotions disliking the person or reconciling and being friends again? I don't think it's right to judge someone negatively when they reconcile with a friend they once disliked. Given, I don't even think it's right to judge (since it's stated in the bible do not judge). Still, it's wrong to judge someone who actually stopped being so close minded and moved past being childish and actually matured into seeing past a person's flaws. That's like saying if I always kicked kittens and I suddenly stopped, I'm being a hypocrite since I went against my usual course of action. No, it's about knowing and realising what's wrong and what's right. What's wrong is to focus on a person's bad in the past and not move past that. Sure, I may dislike my friend for the choices and attitudes they may have had, but that doesn't negate the potential positive aspects of moving past that in the friendship.
Do I sound long winded? I think I do.
It frustrated me being called a hypocrite. Not that I feel I have to explain my actions but I wished sometimes people would just open their self-righteous eyes and mind and not judge people based on their narrow minded perception.

So if you had a best friend whom you drifted away from because of certain events and find yourself renewing the friendship, I say good on you!

I do not feel in the least bit ashamed or bad in becoming friends again with someone I may have disliked before because of their actions. That's one more good friend I have than I would have if I decided to be childish about it and avoided the person. And I wouldn't change that for anything.
I have my flaws too and it makes me happy that if that person can see past my flaws, why can't I do the same?

The next time your friend does something that makes you unhappy and it's a trivial* thing, try to think if you're without flaws, perfect in every way. If you can truly say you are, you know you're either lying or being extremely narcissistically arrogant. It's a wonder you even have friends! Unless they're just there to agree with your self-righteous views. -shrugs

I be done!

I want to heart every single one of my friends who are my friends despite my flaws, who accept me for who I am! You guys make me happy! -cue tears!
Do the same! Tell your friend(s) you heart them for accepting you for who you are. LOL! I sound like some friendship day advert. :D

This post is weird though, because it's a friend that called me a hypocrite, so I guess I should move past my friend's judgement and accept it as part of who they are. Weird though.



*I said trivial okay! Of course if your friend takes a knife out and tries to stab you, it's a very hurtful and dangerous friendship (pun intended) and you should refer your friend to some help. If you're still alive that is. Please no extremist views. Some people just prefer self justifying their actions than acknowledging their narrow mindedness.

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Dum de dum (:
My blogger posting box/options is still awkwardly spoilt.
Kinda feel like I'm the only one with the posting problem.
To be so alone in this world of technological failure! Alas!

I be kidding.
If all goes right, I'd be packed this whole week.
Wednesday HOPEFULLY, going out with Esther and Charis.
Thursday, my weekly dose of Nicole Sam. :D
Friday, well that's still empty but I got CG so it's hard to fill.

OH NO. Just remembered I have to go to the tailor's.
Okay, I shall fish happily until 3, eat lunch, go to the tailor's and then go to the bank and what not.
Happy days!

I still need to pack my room.
Bahhhhh bahhhhh black sheep have you any wool?
Why would I want wool.

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Yello! I be a doing this thing called yawning every 5 minutes. ><
Or less. Probably less.

Sleepy!

I passed me ftt but I only told Esther. Strange but after I passed, instead of feeling happy I felt relieved. And I didn't really have anyone to tell except Esther since like it's quite irrelevant to others. Hahah, but I forgot to message her because I got distracted with trying to get my PDL (yeah I got it after my ftt, sue me) and arrange for my instructors to be English-chinese and not Chinese-english. I'm alright with chinese but when it comes to something like driving where lives can be at stake, I rather not take the chances.

I went to Justin's place to drop off his stuff and played guitar hero for a while, as customary (I invented that). Unfortunately he had to go out and I was kinda falling asleep while talking so he gave me a ride home and I slept most of the afternoon. Tired much!


Today I be a going out with me bud/senior/ex-colleague, Brian. We're going to go to mushroom pot to eat. Never eaten there before so it'll be fun. Going out with Brian usually is quite enjoyable. And I need to go get sparkly sparkly stuff to make mom's mask.
BUSY DAY AHEAD.

Sian, can't go fishing. :(
Oh well.
Hopefully I don't end up spending alot again.

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If I don't kill myself, my schedule will. WAHAHAHA.

Is it me or is there something wrong with Blogger's posting box? :/

I have packed my schedule so tight this week I think I shall collapse by Sat.
Still, I be pretty happy that my schedule's packed this week.
Hopefully it will be next week too.
The only problem with a jam-packed schedule this week is that I have to wake up to pray at 3am everyday so that totally puts a damper on everything. Like tonight I'll be sleeping at 12-2.45am, sleeping again from 4-9.30 cos I have to wake up to go for my FTT.
So on and so forth. YAWN.
One person cancels, another person makes plans. I love my life/friends!


Today was so awesome with Nicole Sam! (:
We shopped from like 1+ all the way to 8+, nonstop!
We didn't even stop to sit down, no wonder my feet hurt so bad during dinner.
AHHH I LOVE SHOPPING TRIPS! :D :D
Super worthwhile! Bought for Nic a pretty Sembonia clutch/purse for 25 bucks when the original price was 115 bucks! I'm still so happy thinking about it. Bought mom a really really difficult sudoku book just to frustrate her on the plane and materials for her mask.
Bahh, I had such a good time, pity it went so fast.
Going to sleep now.
I'm incoherent.
Hope I don't fall asleep while praying. UGH.

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maybe tonight we'll fly so far away we'll be lost before the dawn`